Love from AZ.

So we made the trip. We have reached our destination, we are here! This is first time in exactly ONE week that I am able to talk about it, look at pictures, write about it, even think about it. It's been a very difficult process for me. And not because I regret it and not because I want to go back, but because leaving my comfort zone, leaving the people I love most has been the hardest part.

Yes, I have cried. I cried the night we were driving out of San Antonio in the car. I cried a lot. And over the past week, I have cried even more, but I needed to let that out. I needed to somehow be okay with it and I believe crying was my way of doing so. I am not depressed, I am homesick. I miss my family, I miss my friends, I miss my co-workers, my job, the kids. Madison was my hardest goodbye, and not because I think I'll never see her again, because I will, but because I'm scared to death that the day I do get to see her again, she will have no idea who I am, no idea why this random lady just wants to hold her and love her. Sounds silly? Yeah, definitely, but I have a right to feel that way. Don't get me wrong saying bye to everyone was hard, but I tried my best to think of it more like 'See you later'. I think that not having a place to always be at is weird, not going to work and seeing everyone almost everyday is SO weird. Of course I will get used to it once I get myself into another routine, but I truly do miss everyone.

BUT in conclusion to all of that, I love where I am, I love what I'm doing, and I especially love who I am doing everything with. Jake has been my rock through many things in life and he's been even more of a rock now. He's the most amazing man and I can't believe I'm so lucky. I hope and pray that I will remain close to everyone that I miss, and I cannot wait for everyone to visit at some point. I know it's a drive, or a good flight, but it'll be worth it! This place is beautiful. The mountains, the cactus, the weather, everything.

All in all, we've had a good week of exploring. I'm slowing learning where I am and which direction to go to get to places. The weather isn't too bad, I actually like it. I'm not sure why everyone has said it's hotter here because it is, but it sure doesn't feel hotter. There's single digit humidity as oppose to San Antonio where it's almost always 100%. Here, it's just heat and to me, that feels way better than the sticky, suffocating heat.

But it's an adventure and what's an adventure without some twists and turns. I'm excited for this experience. Once there are cooler things to talk about, that will be more entertaining. So for now, I leave with this. I love and miss everyone so much. I thank you all for being a huge part of my life there and for those sticking around to be part of it here.

 

Aiden & Madison.

Avery Girl.